Humble, I've become

Looking on the past was a mistake thought I had all that I...

playitagainmichael — Sat, 16 Mar 2013 02:52:45 -0400

Looking on the past was a mistake thought I had all that I needed

And the line that you dropped on the phone in my head I know I can’t repeat it

But over and over it just keeps on repeatin

I’m not sleeping and I’m not breathin because you took away my reason.

Lose your ego,

Your skin is see through

You say “I need you”

I don’t believe you.

I try so hard to keep things off my mind

You find a way to get me every single time

Well this time, you’re taking the backseat in my life

I’m past the point of being nice

I give you take, just to throw it in my face

I let you in, but it’s wasted space.

Don’t expect to receive what you will not give

Don’t act like you care when you don’t give a shit

If it was up to me I’d look for something deep

because you’re as shallow as a puddle of rain in the street.

Do you have anything to offer, or just another disappointment?

I don’t have time to waste, I have dreams to achieve.

Lose your ego,

Your skin is see through

You say “I need you”

I don’t believe you.

I try so hard to keep things off my mind

You find a way to get me every single time

Well this time, you’re taking the backseat in my life

I’m past the point of being nice

I give you take, just to throw it in my face

I let you in, but it’s wasted space.

Get over yourself

I’ll find someone

I figured you out

You’re crying for help.

Looking on the past was a mistake thought I had all that I needed

And the line that you dropped on the phone in my head I know I can’t repeat it.

Think about somebody else for one second

Or the fact that I actually cared

Call me selfish but you’re not much better

When you call (when you call), I won’t be there.

Looking on the past was a mistake thought I had all that I...

playitagainmichael — Sat, 16 Mar 2013 02:51:34 -0400

Looking on the past was a mistake thought I had all that I needed

And the line that you dropped on the phone in my head I know I can’t repeat it

But over and over it just keeps on repeatin

I’m not sleeping and I’m not breathin because you took away my reason.

Lose your ego,

Your skin is see through

You say “I need you”

I don’t believe you.

I try so hard to keep things off my mind

You find a way to get me every single time

Well this time, you’re taking the backseat in my life

I’m past the point of being nice

I give you take, just to throw it in my face

I let you in, but it’s wasted space.

Don’t expect to receive what you will not give

Don’t act like you care when you don’t give a shit

If it was up to me I’d look for something deep

because you’re as shallow as a puddle of rain in the street.

Do you have anything to offer, or just another disappointment?

I don’t have time to waste, I have dreams to achieve.

Lose your ego,

Your skin is see through

You say “I need you”

I don’t believe you.

I try so hard to keep things off my mind

You find a way to get me every single time

Well this time, you’re taking the backseat in my life

I’m past the point of being nice

I give you take, just to throw it in my face

I let you in, but it’s wasted space.

Get over yourself

I’ll find someone

I figured you out

You’re crying for help.

Looking on the past was a mistake thought I had all that I needed

And the line that you dropped on the phone in my head I know I can’t repeat it.

Think about somebody else for one second

Or the fact that I actually cared

Call me selfish but you’re not much better

When you call (when you call), I won’t be there.

playitagainmichael: All of our lives we’ve been told what to...

playitagainmichael — Thu, 08 Nov 2012 01:10:00 -0500

playitagainmichael:

All of our lives we’ve been told what to believe. “Nothing is perfect” so what’s the point of purpose? The line that separates the weak from us who truly care, is one I don’t intend to cross. The heart of man beats but only in greedy hands, and it seems that most are still content. Where most are comfortable accepting insignificance, we strive to find the effort within. If you open up your eyes, and open up your mind you be exposed to a world as cold as those who are left to populate it. Two decades spent swallowing lie after lie has sparked a fire in my heart, and the time has come to spread the flame. We can’t continue wasting time, day after day trying to find a new means of escape. We do this day after day. And I can’t face the disconnect. I’ll shed the dead weight and rise. I never thought that I would need to justify a reason to continue in this life I lead. I fucking hate the world, I fucking hate myself. I swore I’d never fucking feel like this.

All around me I see the destruction of my world lost minds and souls, hearts hard as coal, with...

playitagainmichael — Mon, 05 Nov 2012 10:06:38 -0500

All around me I see the destruction of my world

lost minds and souls, hearts hard as coal, with fewer diamonds in the rough

and I don’t know how to react. I have no counterattack.

I try to have hope, but I lose faith myself

The love I give out gets put back on the shelf in that glass case where people mourn at what “used to be”.

But it doesn’t have to “used to be” come on somebody make some use of me.

..for other than their own selfish needs.

i need someone to share these dreams with

playitagainmichael — Sun, 16 Sep 2012 02:57:08 -0400

this bed is not enough.

it just reminds me that I am alone.

playitagainmichael: I’ve seen more guts in eleven year old...

playitagainmichael — Sun, 09 Sep 2012 12:48:00 -0400

playitagainmichael:

I’ve seen more guts in eleven year old kids. (Taken with Instagram)

playitagainmichael: I won’t ever say goodbye because there’s no...

playitagainmichael — Sat, 01 Sep 2012 03:12:16 -0400

playitagainmichael:

I won’t ever say goodbye because there’s no good in it
I’ll stay the course, you’ve sailed away
while my path leads to God only knows
I’ll finish this race, you’ve quit so early
I’d invite you to swim but drifting is not swimming
and this is it, you’ve given me no choice
but to use mere words to stay alive. while you’ve paid them no mind.
and I’ll tell stories about your life, you are no hero but I’ll lie…

because, when all is lost I won’t think of you
there’s nothing in this world that ghost can do
no matter what’s ahead I’ll push on through
for your life or through your death, I’ll keep on.

a song me and daniel wrote

playitagainmichael — Fri, 29 Jun 2012 23:08:00 -0400

Looking back on the past was a mistake thought I had all that I needed

And the line that you dropped on the phone in my head I know I can’t repeat it

But over and over it just keeps on repeatin

I’m not sleepin and I’m not breathin because you took away my reason.

Lose your ego

Your skin is see-through

You say “I need you”

I don’t believe you.

I try so hard to keep things off my mind but you find a way to get me every single time

But this time you’re taking the backseat in my life

I’m past the point of being nice

I give, you take, just to throw it in my face

I let you in, but it’s wasted space.

Don’t expect to receive what you will not give

Don’t tell me you care when you act like you don’t give a shit

You’re as shallow as a puddle of rain in the street

Do you have anything to offer or just another disappointment

I don’t have time to waste, I had dreams to achieve.

I try so hard to keep things off my mind but you find a way to get me every single time

But this time you’re taking the backseat in my life

I’m past the point of being nice

I give, you take, just to throw it in my face

I let you in, but it’s wasted space.

Get over yourself

I’ll find someone else

I figured you out

You’re crying for help

I try so hard to keep things off my mind but you find a way to get me every single time

But this time you’re taking the backseat in my life

I’m past the point of being nice

I give, you take, just to throw it in my face

I let you in, but it’s wasted space.

Think about somebody else for one second or the fact that I actually cared

Call my selfish but you’re not much better

When you call I won’t be there.

playitagainmichael: I’ve been living with debts unpaid and I’m...

playitagainmichael — Thu, 28 Jun 2012 02:17:28 -0400

playitagainmichael:

I’ve been living with debts unpaid and I’m praying to god for an angel to save me, and an answer it came in the form of a friend and he saved my life but I couldn’t save shit.

I saw 13 black crows as black as 3AM and as big as vultures...

playitagainmichael — Tue, 29 May 2012 01:03:19 -0400

I saw 13 black crows as black as 3AM
and as big as vultures eyes
with wings hanging to their sides like laundry on the line
they were standing in a circle letting their tongues dry
they’re coming for me like thieves or ghosts
stealing songs, and whispering poems to themselves
about nonsense and existence

I saw 4 black eagles, with horns growing towards the ground
like columns or anchors reaching towards the bottom
their feathers folded like hands on a man resting in his coffin
bending over each other rattling my bones
drumming out the answers in ways I will need one day
their hooves are giving me growing pains
I sleep like a tornado

I saw 18 black hawks, with beaks full of teeth
roaring like a pack of wolves in perfect V
with hoods over their eyes to cover up what they’ve seen
secrets bouncing off the insides of their lips meant for me
they landed on my life like spears, ears tucked back like arrow feathers
wings spread wide like storm clouds over kansas
hailing on me teaching me their dances, they gave me armor

I saw 9 black owls, they were quiet as death
they had talons like antlers growing from their hearts
and they were tearing me apart
each bird was tagged like cattle with one word
and they burned them in to my mind…they read
you have never lived because you have never died

Sometimes I feel like

playitagainmichael — Thu, 24 May 2012 14:22:12 -0400

that a lot of girls come to me only when they’re sad and lonely, or have some sort of insecurity, or when they’re in some sort of trouble. I love giving people advice or helping them out when they need it, but when they beg for help or ask what they should do, and I tell them what they really should do, and they don’t do it, and then come to me a few weeks later with the same problem or even a new one, I feel like it’s a slap in the face, or when I see them walking around with that same asshole they were complaining about months ago. I just want a girl to come to me because she wants to be with me, or actually appreciates my willingness to help. is that too much to ask? maybe for someone to like me enough so it’s worth doing something about it.

come to the coast

playitagainmichael — Mon, 30 Apr 2012 14:15:00 -0400

I keep trying and trying to get away from it

but i keep buying and buying into it.

We’re consumers. Beggars, not choosers.

How can you expect to win when you have the mindset of a loser? We’ve lost this fight, but just for this time. Maybe we’ll scrape up enough courage in our hearts to try a second time. I’m not proud of it, but sometimes there seems no way out of it.

I’m all alone is this four walled room.

Lights off in the dark, it looks just like my heart.

Just take a seat and listen to my heartbeat.

If you step on a crack, you’ll break my back. When you run through my veins you give me a heart attack.

I need a shock back to life. I’m drifting towards the light. That was the last time I saw those brown eyes.

Now I’m back in the dark, and it looks just like my heart when you’re not living here anymore. You’re not listening anymore.

All that’s left are artificial substitutions and they will never suffice. This is twice now I’ve come to the coast, hoping to light a candle in a little boat. But a wave always comes and crashes, they come and leave me scratches, but you haunt me like a ghost.

We lost that fight, but just those times. Maybe thrice will get it right. Can we just scrape up whatever courage is left in our hearts, and press rewind, then start. Not to do it the same again, but to keep what we felt in the beginning, and rewrite the end.

You haunt me in my dreams and in reality. Hiding these feelings isn’t as easy as it seems. You...

playitagainmichael — Thu, 26 Apr 2012 10:47:26 -0400

You haunt me in my dreams and in reality. Hiding these feelings isn’t as easy as it seems. You bring out the best in me.

seanwisdom: Facebook.com/Aboveme

playitagainmichael — Tue, 17 Apr 2012 13:28:07 -0400

seanwisdom:

Facebook.com/Aboveme

A little writing that I started when I was bored, but got cut short.

playitagainmichael — Thu, 12 Apr 2012 02:06:04 -0400

FREAK:

I feel like my tragedies and triumphs come at the wrong time; like my and the worlds clocks are not synchronized. I’m healthy inside, but barely alive. my joy is a struggle, but you won’t know if you won’t try. Nothing seems right and I can only ask why. Some say it’s a design; that the stars are aligned like a big master plan. Others believe it’s a formula, and the so-called creator was just a man. He lived and died like all of us, and there’s no resurrection. We just turn to dust. Who must I trust? We lust, and don’t love, and when we do, it’s never enough. We’re addicts to what we lack, and we’ll take all we can get and give nothing back. We’ll hurt others and self inflict pain with sharp words and adulterous acts. We’re still all alone left with our thoughts, (like I am in the office). Thinking if I could change things what the cost is. I lost this about 19 years ago, the cost is losing innocence the more I grow. The more I grow, I learn what I know now will not be someday somehow. Some way I’ll forget, like I am now. I’m a forgetful person, but there are a lot of things worse than this; like never having that feeling of a first kiss. I swear you bring it back again every single time. It’s like hitting pause and rewind, our fingers intertwined, your wavelength the same as mine. Now I’m starting to feel sick, the ringing phone made me jump out of my seat. I’m just sitting here, pen in hand, listening to some shitty rap song. That’s what I really appreciated. We had all the same favorite bands. Anyways where was I? Our hearts beating together? Loudly like thunder. the only kind of chemistry that can cause tornado weather. And I wonder. It sure caused weather. Whether there’s a future in this or not, I don’t know. I’d sure like to hope so, but we’re so different now, and how I’m feeling is not by what I see. I’m loving the person you used to be. But and eye for an eye. I guess I understand. No. Never mind. I guess I don’t understand.

Today’s little exercise shitter.

woke up alone

playitagainmichael — Wed, 11 Apr 2012 12:34:44 -0400

and I’ll go to bed the same.

As long as I don’t think of you.

…I think I’ll stay sane.

Drinking

playitagainmichael — Sun, 11 Mar 2012 17:42:52 -0400

Drinking for fun
Drinking for my problems
Drinking for today
Drinking for tomorrow
Drinking for my sins
Drinking for my sorrows

Everybody has their loneliness or company. All I know is that they don’t want me.

playitagainmichael — Wed, 07 Mar 2012 00:11:07 -0500

Everybody has their loneliness or company.
All I know is that they don’t want me.

im stuck between the state

playitagainmichael — Sat, 11 Feb 2012 11:52:46 -0500

of becoming something great and wasting away

Inspiration from the shower pt. 2

playitagainmichael — Mon, 23 Jan 2012 15:04:15 -0500

I’m a box full of secrets and they’re everybody’s but mine. I’m harsh on the eyes but if you’d look inside you wouldn’t believe what you see. Stories constructed of everybody’s missing puzzle piece. It’s the reason they’re so hard to understand. It’s like leaving a message behind in the sand, and by the time someone comes by to read it, the waves have already come to eat it.

I’m a wishing well that goes down deep in the pit of my stomach. I hold everybody’s problems. My friends and foes, they all got them and I pray every night that I can solve them. But you can’t love somebody until you can learn to love yourself, and that’s the hardest part when I’d rather give love away to somebody else.

My arms hang like branches with no fruit to show. I’m only useful to the crows, but even they come and go. It’s just not the right season so I sit tight and wait for another year with a different reason. You reap what you sow, and I’ve been planting seeds of hope, but I’ve yet to see anything grow. Nobody wants to fail but sometimes that’s all we can do. You either win or lose, and there are times when you have to choose between the two. We can only try to make the best decision, like bracing yourself in a head-on collision.